medic&i

medicine = serious and professionalism
hanis = playing around

if hanis + medicine = DISASTROUS!!

right now, motivation is crucial. please provide me with.

dear self, don't give up!

first trial of nasi ayam

hari ni first time wat nasi ayam. punye la ketinggalan zaman. org lain dah lame da pro wat nasi ayam. kt baru nk cube2?? haha. lantak lah asalkan mencube kn. hehe.

mule2 tak terfikir pon nk wat nasi ayam tp blur2 xtahu nk masak ape hari ni. den tgh dok searching2 resipi ape yg cambes kat tenet tibe2 my fren ni tego kat ym. dah alang2 die menegur, mintak cadangan sikit kat die nk masak ape hari ni. huhu. mula2 die suggest soh wat laksa johor memandangkn die suke laksa johor. tp malangnye i nk masak ayam. laksa pakai ikan =.= so tak jadi la nk accept suggestion die tu.

den tup2 die kate wat la nasi ayam. katenye sng je. n so terusla mencari resipi nasi ayam kat tenet yg mane nampak cam sng n xcomplicated. tp ntah ape pasal ntah, sume search result yg kua tu sume dlm english. org nk cari yg bahasa melayu. ceitt. tp xpalah. try je la review resipinye.

apsal sume mcm complicated je. yg ni kate mcm ni. satgi bukak yg lain, die kate cam lain pulak. haiii byk care rupenye nk wat nasi ayam ni. ade yg kate rebus ayam tu. ade kate masak nasik bersama ayam2 tu. kre cam sekali gus la. yg tu cam menarik tp malangnye periuk nasi pulak la cinonoet je. camne la nk masukkn nasi bersama2 5 ketul ayam dlm tu. akan melimpah ruahlah isinya kang. hoho. n so tak jadi la nk pakai method tu.

den tgk pulak resipi lain. dah mcm berkenan da. pastu tgk2 apsal rase mcm tak cukup je step die ni. camne nk wat cili die???? apsal die cite pasal nasi n ayam je. nasi ayam kan consist of nasi, ayam, sup, kicap dan cili tp apsal die cite pasal nasi n ayam je. ceitt.

dah lame pening2 tu las2 tgk sape je yg ym yg rase mcm bole membantu kasi resipi nasi ayam yg dorg amalkn. cek2 kat list ym tu, yey! da jumpe satu penyelamat dunia. hahahak. las skli sume resipi kat tenet tu tak bole diharap. pakai resipi kwn sendri gak paling sng. die pon slalu wat style org perantauan (when i say org perantauan faham2 je la kn. ade bende yg terpaksa disimplify kn atas sbb2 tertentu contohnye kerana ade certain bahan tu xdpt dimiliki di bumi selain malaysia) hoho.. ape da.. klu mule2 da terus tye kn sng. xpayah susa2 nk carik kat tenet. huhu...

n so ke dapor lah sy... bukak peti ais. makaih.. timun: tett! salad: tett!! tomato: sebbek ade, tp due ketul je tinggal. ishh org da smgt2 nk wat nasi ayam bahan la pulak xade. adeh. misi xberjaye jugak. ahh! tuka resipi lain la. carik3 lagi........ okee... jom wat ayam kari je la, sng. hahah. las skli wat ayam kari je. huhu.. eh td kate wat nasi ayam. ape ni! hahaha.

den tgh dok basuh2 ayam tu pk.. ishh xmo la wat kari, td niat da nk wat nasi ayam. rase cam xbes pulak. jadi las menet tu tuka balik kpd perancangan asal.. buat nasi ayam. hahah.. mcm2 la cik hanis ni. problem tol. n at last, terjadi la nasi ayam ini hari. first time tu wat. tatau la ape rase die sbb tak mkn lagi. excited sgt lepas siap masak je terus update blog pasal nasi ayam. kah3!

ok nk pegi mkn skg. ape rase la agaknye ye. huhu. hope it still turned out well walaupon serba kekurangan. huhu.. selamat menjamu selera! ;)

p/s: hari ni tulisan memanjang je sbb i terase nk membebel byk3 ini hari. HAHAHAH!! >;)

baby omar

Today i met a boy, seven months old. He was brought to the hospital with the complaint of yellow coloration of the skin and sclera (jaundice) and poor growth with significant weight loss and muscle wasting.

on evaluation of the history, the baby was born normal with birth weight of 3.75kg which is considered normal weight at birth and had no perinatal and postnatal complications except having breech presentation and delivered by ceaserian section. few weeks after birth, the baby was admitted to the hospital complaining of projectile vomiting. he was also prescribed with formula milk as supplement but in spite of all these, the baby still doesn't seem to gain weight but lose more weight instead. a liver biopsy was performed denoting of suspicion of liver disease since the baby was presented by jaundice with very dark yellow colour of the urine and pale colour stool which denotes presence of conjugated bilirubin that pointed to either; 1) hepatocellular jaundice or 2) obstructive jaundice. family history shows that the parents are first degree consanguineous.

on physical examination;

weight: 2.7kg
length: 54cm
head circumference: 35.5cm
midarm circumference: 6cm
signs of visible severe wasting;-
1. stick like leg - due to wasting of the cuff muscle
2. baggy pant sign (longitudinal skin fold on the thigh)
3. buttocks had no pad of fat
4. transverse diameter of the hip is less than transverse diameter of the abdomen
5. visible outline of the ribs - due to wasting of the pectoralis muscle
6. distended abdomen
7. triangular old man face - due to wasting of the buccal pad of fat
the body weight was < 60% without edema

diagnosis was made by exclusion;
1. infection
2. billiary atresia
3. inborn error of metabolism

the baby was finally diagnosed as having marasmus secondary to inborn error of metabolism. =(

marasmic child

we was told by the doctor that in this case there is no hope for the baby to survive. the only thing that can be done is to give genetic counseling to the parents for their future offspring.
poor baby, at this young age you had suffered so much. i pity the mother. she even cried looking at her child's condition but had nothing left to be done to save her baby. it looks as if she is just waiting for her baby to die. how sad is that.. i cannot imagine if the same situation happen to my children later on. hope that the mother is strong enough to face this situation. don't worry mam, if one day Allah had decided to take back omar, insyaAllah he will be waiting for you in the heaven =)

wallahu'alam~

watch what you're saying

the light was 'kelip-kelip'ing denoting that it will die sooner or later. i can predict coz the toilet bulb usually does the same before it finally dies out a few days later. and so i just ignore it and continue doing my notes.. then again it did the 'kelip-kelip' like before. this time i whispered in my heart, "if the light suddenly dies out, it's okay, i'm fine with it. tomorrow i'll buy a new bulb." when suddenly not before a minute passed, the light went out! subhanallah.. then it's true what some people told you, "this is bumi para anbiya', ardu kinanah.. doa mudah diperkenankan. so be careful and watch out what you're saying".. i got a chill for a sec.. why not...? the light suddenly went out after you said it will and right before your eyes, you realized you are now in the dark of the night at 3AM! and you are alone! quite scary eh? huhu..

today was really a very long and dreadful day! full of consequences... alhamdulillah, You teach me the lesson of sabr enough in one day. thank you Allah.. but still, i do pray for You to give me Your guidance n strength My Lord.. amin~

kusut

kadang-kadang Allah sembunyikan matahari, Dia datangkan petir dan kilat. Kita menangis tercari-cari ke mana hilangnya sinar. Rupa-rupanya Allah ingin menghadiahkan kita pelangi.
yakin dengan Allah, insyaAllah kheir...

wahai hati, janganlah bersedih kepada yang telah pergi. tetapi lihatlah kpd hikmah yang datang.

i have been a really bad girl today. i don't know why but i felt so miserable today. nothing seemed to be right. i'm emotionally disturbed. i woke up in the morning feeling like killing someone and my whole day doesn't seem right.

i can't even face the book. books are like something horrible to me. i got mad to lots of people. i say inappropriate words. i got a bad laundry. i got one less follower. i'm not studying. i am in a really really really bad mood today. i dislike everything that happen today.
Ya Allah, what is happening to me? i feel like being sooo far away from You. Ya Rabb, please take me home back to where i belong. tetapkan imanku Ya Allah. i don't ever want to be far from You. please take me home. please protect me from the whispers of satan. amin amin ya rabbal alaminnn....

mari mulakan sekali lagi

(^_^)

Akhirnya mampu tersenyum sedikit. okiee akn cube utk meneruskan usaha yg sudah lame terbengkalai dibiarkn berhabuk usang tanpa dijenguk. huhu.

Dinasihatkan dalam sebuah athar :

ما خاب من استخار ولا ندم من استشار

Ertinya : Tidaklah rugi sesiapa yang beristikharah ( meminta petunjuk) dan tidak menyesal mereka yang bermesyuarat [Al-Awsat, At-Tabrani, 6/365]

maka tindakan yg perlu diambil skg ialah:

1.     memulakan & istiqamah

2.     berterus-terang & jujur --> قل الحق ولو كان مرا (Katakanlah benar walaupun pahit)

3.     berusaha sedaya upaya utk mengawal

4.     mencukupkan persediaan & perancangan

5.     berserah & bertawakkal 

hablun minallah, hablun minan nas

SABAR, TAWAKKAL & TAQWA

Ya Allah, aku memohon kecintaan-MU, kecintaan orang yang sentiasa mencintai-MU, kecintaan apa sahaja mendekatkan diriku kepada-MU, dan masukkanlah aku ke syurga bersama-sama kecintaan itu.

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tension

TENSIONNYEEE~~~~!!!!

TENSION TENSION TENSION TENSION... TENSION!

Problems will occur when one starts to ignore the rights of others

i can be linear... it only takes you to ask politely

like what ustaz aqli said yesterday.. "sometimes your friend can give you more than expected if only you ask their permission to share". it only takes you less than a minute to do so. then why is it so hard for you to ask for permission??!!

argghhh... life is complicated after all =.="

lunar eclipse

subhanallah.. alhamdulillah.. wala ila haillallah.. Allahu akhbar! thank you Allah for the 100minutes chance You gave me to at least have a glance at tonight's lovely creation of Yours, the lunar eclipse =)

lunar-eclipse

sigh

will i make a good doctor?

i doubt myself =(

7months old

eh eh eh... ta perasan pulak da masuk 7bulan blog ni beroperasi. huhu

sori blog.. xwish happy 7 month old lagi kat awak

happy birthday! ^^

p/s: thanks to the one yg tolong igtkn. hehe =)

result intmed

alhamdulillah the thing i've waited for so long was finally answered. today i got my internal medicine result. what a relieve! i have passed with a good grade. alhamdulillah no repeat paper :) but as usual mine was the least of all my housemates. predictable even without looking at their results. huhu. now im just waiting for the surgery result. heard many repeaters for this one. praying that im not one of them *worried*

today i cut myself while cutting the apple. it hurts! may this pain be the 'penghapus dosa2 kecil-ku'

lagi2 kawen. ape daa

ms potato: tgk org kawen, dah nak kawen, tgh prepare2 utk kawen terpikir bile pulak my turn?? haha.

ms batotis: sabo la makcik, blajar pon tak habis lg. satu-satu ler.. satu tanggungjawab tak selesai lg nk tambah satu lg pulak? haiyaa manyak tamak la lu ni. kang sume tak terlarat nk tanggung. lagipon da ade calon ke nk kawen2 ni? ;P

ms potato: haha baikkk...... ;) tapiiiiii nnt lepas habis belajar ade satu lagi pulak tanggungjawab, bekerja... xkawen la camni.. isk3.. calon kah..? amboiii perli nmpk. i tau la i sape kn. fine. xyah kawen. sudah. dok diam2. xmo borak da ngn u. majuk. huh! >((

ms batotis: =P

*dialog org yg da menggong

i hate but why?

i hate everything about you.. why do i love you

you hate everything about me.. why do you love me?!

The 100th

wahhhh.. the 100th post already? byk jugak ye awak membebel sorg2 kat cni. hehe. for the 100th post, i would like to treasure it with something special. my 22nd birthday! it's not like i will be 22 forever. huhu.

And the story begin....

This was the night during my birthday. we went out to down town with our beloved kak hani and farhana

*farhana was not in this picture because she was the photographer ;)

 At first we had decided to celebrate my birthday at Taj Mahal restaurant when suddenly we canceled our dinner there and went to another restaurant only because they don't serve roti nan at the moment which happened to be the special entity of the taj mahal restaurant. haha

And so we headed to chill's restaurant nearby since it was our second best choice besides Taj Mahal. 

And so we spent quite a while only to pick the best menu for ourselves....

And after waited for some time, the meal arrived. look at our happy faces with those giant burgerzz!! huhu..

must take note that arabianz do eat alot! hence, it's no big deal if their burgers turn out to be that kind of size. hehe

this is what i get myself for that night. can't remember the name.

and and and........ i got a surprise birthday cake!

it's a handmade strawberry cake. 

specially dedicated by my lovely housemates. thanks ya all. luv it so much! ;)

here is me happily cutting the birthday cake. hehe

but unfortunately the cake couldn't be eaten at the restaurant because of their cleaver regulations which do not allow outside foods.

and so the night had turned morning... and that's all for the night of my birthday ;)

next, i would like to thanked all for the birthday wishes, prayers, presents ect.

i got at least 104 birthday wishes on facebook, 3 birthday messages by phone, 3 webcam wishes on skype including that of my family, mum and dad whom i missed so much, 3 blog posts, and many2 direct wishes from my beloved friends. hee. thanks guyz!

 a small surprise birthday celebration with flowers and ice cream from dear hasmah during our study group that day.

here is the flower. i kept in a reused 7-up bottle since i got no vase to put it into. and i also added a panadol as an extra nutrient to the flower since people usually say panadol can lengthened its life span although i doubt it myself. haha. 

this is the second look of the flower after 2 weeks. so what do you think? do panadol really prolonged the life span of the flower somehow? hehe

and also a very nice heart-touching first made video of yours.

triplet frento

thanks dear hasmah^^

 secondly, to dear nanu thanks for the mini stack chocolate although i already know the price since you bought it with me. haha. thanks dear :)

thirdly, special thanks to tok pp for the slice of pumpkin blueberry cheese cake although i requested for delight banana cake but you gave me this cake instead. huhu. either one, i'm still lovin' it ^^ thanks! 

and again, thanks dear sakinah zuriati and siti hajar for this special present.

terranova...??

although the bag was terranova, inside it was max casual wear. huhu. 

thanks dearies! hehe

a card by liyanagh

a photo frame from dear house mates: yana, zatie, diba.. thanks guys ;)

i'm putting a picture of mum & dad in this new photo frame. aren't they adorable? sweet couple even they are married for 27years (if i'm not mistaken). sharing a cup of ice lemon tea. how i wish to do the same sweet act with my future husband. hehe ^_^

to beta, thanks for the locker. it's my pleasure to get lots of chocolates. hehe

also to amal, thanks dear for the bar of chocolate. i'm a chocolate lover. so no need to be sorry for a bar of chocolate as present. i'm more than satisfied. hehe ;)

long time no eat la you schogetten. hehe

the unique, lovely present from dear fakhriah, hajar, sakinah..

the book, it is so lovely i don't even think of writing anything in it for i'm afraid it would be ruin by me. huhu.

 the front page of the book

 the last page of the book

how creative ya all. thanks guys! =)

and special thanks to tqa zahudi for editing pictures for me. 12 of them all. out of those 12 edited photos, this one i like the most. thanks dear ;)

last but not least, a neroli jasmine body shop perfume which i just got it yesterday. 

to be honest, i do wear perfumes but up till now i never bought a perfume myself. haha. all are presents from others. so if you ask me, "what perfume do you like?", i will answer.. "i dunno". it's because i never choose one myself. 

and again, i remembered requesting "wangian utk bilik" but what i got was "wangian utk bdn".. wahai tok, why do you like to give things not requested? haha. but still i loike.. so much! thanks ;)

that's all for my 100th post.

thanks friendss! ^_< 

be happy

i'm happy to see you becoming happy like you used to be. maybe you suffered along the way, but in the end you manage to survive. that is all i need to know. stay happy.. because you deserve to get one. and i know you will be happier without me around. after all, i'm just an eye-soring, heart-aching person to be around with. i acknowledge it and this is me keeping you happy. i'm happy as long as you're happy. so please be happy forever and always =)

remorse

how many time did i tell u if you want to speak to Allah.. do pray/do'a. and if you want to hear Allah's word.. read the Quran. i learned my lesson today.. the minute i lost my grip on You, You hold on to me and You gave me this...

Dan apabila manusia ditimpa oleh sesuatu bahaya, mereka menyeru Tuhannya dgn kembali bertaubat kepadaNya, kemudian apabila Dia memberikan sedikit rahmatNya kepada mereka, tiba-tiba sebahagian mereka mempersekutukan Allah.

[Ar-Rum, 30:33]

Dan apabila Kami berikan sesuatu rahmat kpd manusia nescaya mereka gembira dgn rahmat itu. tetapi apabila mereka ditimpa sesuatu musibah kerana kesalahan mereka sendiri, seketika itu mereka berputus asa. 

[Ar-Rum, 30:36]

Dan tidakkah mereka memerhatikan bahawa Allah yg melapangkan rezeki bagi sesiapa yg Dia kehendaki dan Dia yg membatasi bagi sesiapa yg Dia kehendaki. sungguh pada yg demikian itu benar-benar terdapat tanda-tanda kebesaranNya bg kaum yg beriman.

 [Ar-Rum 30:37]

Ya Allah, subhanallah.. astaghfirullahalazim.. forgive me please for my wrong doings. i have been bad today.. saying things that shouldn't be said. aku menjadi hambaMU yg tidak bersyukur. astaghfirullahalazim.. ampunkanku..

frust menonggeng

Apasal bile exam je mesti xdpt jawab
lagi2 oral exam!
kenapa..? kenapa..?? kenapa..?!

sbb sy malas study ke?
sbb sy suka main?
sbb sy suka tido?
ke sbb sy mmg xpandai?
sbb sy byk wat salah dgn cikgu2?
sbb sy byk wat dosa ngn org?

KENAPA?!!!

ke sbb sy cpt menggelabah bile org tye soklan?
asal kena jawab soklan je mesti blank mcm xpernah bace ape2
tension la camni...

medic,
skg ni sy mmg kecewa sgt3 ngn awk. awk robek hati sy berkali-kali, tp sy tetap beralah dgn awk. tp skg sy dah tawar hati dgn awk. kecewa sgt-sgt _ _"

xmo kawan.. huh!

result last sem bile nk kua pon tatau la. tension3!!

*hari pertama utk bulan jun dah emo. permulaan bulan yg xbest. hmmm.......