end of year present

He just took our wedding rings at the shop today. they are beautiful. can't wait to wear it on my 'sweet' ring finger. hehe ^^

Goodbye 2012, you brought many joys into my life. too much wonderful memories to remember for this year. And welcome 2013, may the coming years will bring more joys to our life, inshaAllah.. There's so much more awaiting for next year. can't wait to be there~! ^.^

HAPPY NEW YEAR FRIENDS~!

mesh up payphone

Currently addicted to this song. ---> payphone/telephone/call me maybe
One of my favourite mesh up from sam tsui. Hey sam tsui you never failed to make me fall in love with your mesh-ups. you screwed the songs so well and i loved it! ^^

protein and esrd

Now i know how most slimming products work. they give you proteins and deprive you from carbohydrates. by doing this you'll use your excess body fats as the main source of energy. brilliant idea actually but be careful too much protein consumption may be harmful for your kidneys. overloading the kidney with proteins might end you up with kidney failure. it's bad actually bcoz ESRD will put you on renal replacement therapy for life! well that's not very helpful is it.

So to those people out there, it's okay to loose weight and get ideal body by the help of 'the helper' products but first make sure you understand the mechanism of it's action on slimming your body, then weight its benefits vs harmful side effects. after you do that, then you decide whether to use the product or not okay. well happy slimming then n good luck! ^.^       

apologize

A friend said to me, maybe you were the one who's at wrong. at some point, you were wrong. don't you want to apologize to him? i do, but i don't know how. tried before, but i guess it didn't worked out well coz part of me still harbours the resentment towards him. he reacted badly and you hated it. but it's not his only fault he became that way, part of it was bcoz of you, or most of it i think. so forgive him please dearie dear me. forgive him with all your heart. 

And now i don't even know when is the suitable time to do so. deep down i want to let it go, cut it clean, be peace to my mind n soul. each time i think of what i did, i couldn't help to think how foolish was i back then. i'm such a kid. and now i kept on thinking should i ask for an apology one more time or just ignore and let it be as it is. i wish for the best and yet i don't really know what's best to be done. does ignoring helps or one last apology would be better? deeeeep so deeep inside me i really felt sorry for him and sincerely wanted to apologize but i am afraid if it would make matter even worse and so i hold myself back. never was my intention to hurt anybody but bcoz i'm just human, i can't run from making mistakes to myself and to others, and so i'm so sorry that i particularly hurt you physically, mentally and emotionally. hope you will someday forgive me with an open heart. byanata, byane. 

The singing song: apologize - one republic

No body said it was easy

Alhamdulillah just finished with my 11th semester exams last thursday and tomorrow i will be stepping into my very final semester in this school of medicine. wow how time flies that even i didn't noticed it passed by so quickly. when looking back to the years that has gone, i can't even imagine how i managed to get pass through the roughness of the road taken. no body said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard. but yet i manage to let myself into the final sem, means i can do it even if it's so so so hard, and i will finish this strong. chaiyok3! you only left less than a year to go, so don't give up!

p/s: to Mr You-Know-Who, gidalyeo? =)  

Dont be a disobedient child

I know to some ppl they cannot accept when their parents dont gv permission to marry. But to me obeying ur parents are just as important as getting married soon (in the terms of avoiding zina n sins- these are the usual reasons for them) or maybe much more important than getting married quickly. Becareful, maybe Allah is testing you.
Just imagine, at the very last moment of you being under the responsibility of ur mum n dad, u ruin it instead of finishing it with clean records. How do you suppose Allah will bless ur marriage when you didnt even get the blessings from ur parents?
'Redha Allah, redha ibu bapa'
Jgn hnya kerana kita mahu penuhi cita2 cinta hati kita, kita melukakan hati org tua kita. Dont dont dont, never! Letakkan perkara yg hak pada tempatnya. Igtlah sblm kahwin, ketaatanmu kpd ibubapamu, lps kahwin nnt barulah taat pd suamimu. Jgn terbalik pulak. That's what ppl usually do =.="
May all our actions get the blessings of Allah. Take care of Allah, then Allah will take care the rest, inshaaAllah.

mengidam kek batik

Tgh2 study forensic tajuk DEATH termengidam kek batik pulak. ade kaitan ke kek batik dgn death, apsal termengidam lak ni? huhu.

Jadi tersearch pulak resipi. hehehe. dissbkn sy kurang rajin nk membaca, lebih suke yg bersifat visual animation makanya cari la resipi kat youtube.

And so here is the recipe of kek batik.

Tapi sbb skg tgh under stress exam, makanya terpaksalah postpone niat murni nk wat kek batik ni kpd 20hb disember lepas exam. huhu. sabar ye hanis, and make sure niat murni awk tu murni smp bile tiba masanya. jgn nnt dah habis exam trus hilang lak niat murni awk tu. typical me, when it comes to cooking or anything related like baking etc. i am easily demotivated. hehehe. ok, pk as salah satu praktis before kawen. heheh.

To you n to me, selamat maju jaya. push ourselves to STUDY! few more to go, don't give up! ;)

ten months from now

You only have less than a year to complete your degree in medicine. 

I guess 6 years was not that long after all. 

Lets strive successfully. 

All the best! ^.< 

p/s: it was raining heavily and the wind was blowing wildly a while ago that force us to cancel our plan on going to the forum of "hakikat syiah" tonight. sadly. but its okay, might be that Allah is protecting us from harm? Allah knows best. :) 

target of today

Alhamdulillah dah dpt sup panas sama teh tarik! ^_^
Ok dah boleh sambung study dgn rajin nyaa..

For today, i'm targeting on finishing 7 topics of the toxic but till now i only finished 2 of them. got 5 more to be completed. chaiyok3 hanis! tonight i'm attending the forum on the topic of "Hakikat Syiah" and so i need to make sure to finish all the 7 topics before 7 pm. go hanis go! All the best :)

the betrayal of muslims

And Satan will say when the matter has been concluded, "Indeed, Allah had promised you the promise of truth. And I promised you, but I betrayed you. But I had no authority over you except that I invited you, and you responded to me. So do not blame me; but blame yourselves. I cannot be called to your aid, nor can you be called to my aid. Indeed, I deny your association of me [with Allah ] before. Indeed, for the wrongdoers is a painful punishment." 

Ibrahim [14:22]

Look to how arrogant n a betrayal satan is? don't make satan our companion coz he never was a true friend. he is a true enemy instead. he leads us to disasters and then leave us to deal with ourselves alone. remember O' muslims, Allah promise your the truth, while satan promise you nothing but destroyment. may we be in the Rahmah of Allah.

Wallahu'alam...

faith and tawakal

Dan mengapa kami tidak akan bertawakal kpd Allah, sdgkn Dia tlh menunjukkan jln kpd kami dan kami sungguh akan tetap bersabar terhadap gangguan yg kamu lakukn kpd kami. Dan hanya kpd Allah sahaja org yg bertawakal berserah diri. 

Ibrahim [14:12]

Read this verse of the Al-Quran just now then i remembered our brothers n sisters in Palestine. it reflects to me that those people in Palestine are those who give themselves to Allah (berserah diri, bertawakal) even though they are suffering there. it's because they know Allah have shown them the right way and for that they will keep holding on to Allah even if they die in the hand of the zionist they will never give up on Allah.

So, brothers n sisters, if those palestinian can devote themselves to Allah even in the hardest of time, then why can't we? our calamities is nothing compared to them. be content with what Allah had decreed for you, and you will be the richest of all people. 

To palestinian, hold on. victory will be ours, In Sha Allah. Allahu Akhbar!

Let us pray for our brothers and sisters in Gaza.

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To LORDians, final exam has finally arrived. good luck in studues during this cold winter season. the last winter, inshaAllah. create a meaningful memory for this final winter. this is our jihad. lets study hard, answer the exam with confident and be happy with what you get later, all pass inshaAllah. robbuna yusahhil! ;)

aku datang

Addicted to this song. kept on abusing the youtube play button the whole day. don't really know why but i did. =.=" 

Btw, lisa surihani looks too cute in here. just can't get my eyes off her. :) 

p/s: Istanbul, when can i be there? you are one of the place i would like to set foot on but still haven't got the chance. hopefully one day i will, InshaAllah :) 

before sleep

Always remind yourself to recall everything u did the whole day before you sleep.
Don't forget to...
1. Muhasabah diri
2. Maafkn kesalahan org lain thdp kita
3. Berazam agar hari esok lebih baik dari hari ini.
Mudah2an hari esok kita akan lebih bermakna, bermanfaat dan kita lebih bersemangat utk menempuhi hari itu :)

new pouch for the new hd

Last week i bought a new external hard disc, which is 1 tera in size. Hehe.

Since the new hd doesn't come with a cover, i decided to buy it separately. but just before i could do that, a friend of mine she offered herself to nit me a pouch for my newly bought hd. And surprisingly she has already finished it by today. Its not even a week! Amazing how she could nit that fast. Hehe.

Here is my new pouch. it fits in perfectly :)

Alhamdulillah, thank you my dear for this wonderful pouch. i love it! I'll make sure to take care of it. Hehe. Thanks dearie. ;)

let the few be the value

Lately i alwys cry thinking of mum n dad and my family. myb bcoz i know i dont hv much time left with them. im away for too long and when it is time for me to return, i hv to go with someone else. i once promised myself that i wouldn't want to be apart from them any more, let egypt be the last. but now when i think about what my near future holds, i feel sad coz i know it will no longer permissible. deep down, i hoped i did better for them and gave more. but now that i know my time is limited, i just want to make every moment i have with them counts. so that i wont be regretting this later and may it be the most valuable memory to me and to them. :)

Ermmm... ppl might just think wrongly about this post. it's not like i have a terminal disease and im dying or anything.. just say, i am near to building a new family, (which was suppose to be a happy something. and yes it is). just that when i think of how much time left for me to spend with them, that what makes me wanna cry...

Mum dad, truly your daughter misses both of you so much. sorry for all the wrong things i did and for the things i couldnt do. they never were my intentions to hurt either of you. coz mum dad, you are the apple of my eye, and the reason that i live. thank you for everything. i know i won't be able to repay both of you even if i have a mount full of golds, but the least i could do is to make you smile n be happy. love you so much and will always be loving you. although im far from you, just know that my heart is always near to you. =')

Sincerely,
Your little girl and will always be ur little girl :')

we first met

Scrolling my own twitter account and reading my own tweets (which i love doing, kinda hobby. even did it on the blog too! hehe), then i spotted this tweet i wrote on 16th august 2012. It was the day i first met you in person. (thought you look handsome tho. hahah :p) It had been 3 months since then. hope to see you again on November 2013, InsyaAllah...

Happy 2nd months engagement anniversary! ^_^    

May we pass through this crucial phase with success and ready physically & mentally; heart & soul, to confidently approach the next step of a new beginning to a happy ending, insyaAllah. have faith in Him n us. :)

salam maal hijrah

Alhamdulillah today will be the last day of the year for the Islamic calender and tomorrow will be another year to face. May this year brings benefit and full meaning in our life and next year brings more joys and happiness and rahmah, insyaAllah :)

Hari ini genap DUA tahun berblogging dgn SWEET POTATO. There's so many things i treasured in this blog. my happiness, my sadness, my achievements, my disappointments, and so many memories that i hope not to forget.

Happy 2nd year birthday my sweet potato. ^_^

In conjunction with this meaningful day, i decided to make a new change in the blog header. ;) 

Happy 2nd year anniversary my dear sweet potato :)

Together we strive

In less than a year, i will become a graduate (insyaAllah). it felt like a dream. couldn't imagine how i survived 5 years in medical school. All the ups and downs, we managed to get through the obstacles... together. :')

InsyaAllah i will try my best for my final year. Lets try our best dear friends! Ya Allah, help us through. :)

kami beraya haji

::26 OCTOBER 2012::

We celebrated our (most probably) last eid ahda together in Egypt.

Di pagi hari raya

Juadah hari raya ^_^

Gelagat kami XD

Family picture ;)

The four of us <3

Happy eidul adha everyone! =)

all the best

"Sesiapa yang keadaan usahanya semata-mata berkehendakkan kehidupan dunia dan perhiasannya (dengan tidak disaksikan sama oleh Al-Quran tentang sah batalnya), maka Kami akan sempurnakan hasil usaha mereka di dunia, dan mereka tidak dikurangkan sedikitpun padanya."

(Hud 11:15)

"Merekalah orang-orang yang tidak ada baginya pada hari akhirat kelak selain daripada azab neraka, dan pada hari itu gugurlah apa yang mereka lakukan di dunia, dan batallah apa yang mereka telah kerjakan."

(Hud 11:16)

Alangkah ruginya jika kita lakukan sesuatu tanpa niat utk beribadah dan mancari keredhaan Allah. kelak di akhirat tiada bahagian utk kita bagi pekerjaan yg kita lakukn di dunia. maka setiap urusan kehidupan hari-hari kita niatkanlah sebagai ibadah kpd Allah, hatta tidur sekalipun. InsyaAllah, ada saham bagi kita di hari kemudian. janji Allah itu pasti. =)

Kpd LORDIANS yg bakal menduduki peperiksaan end posting khamis ni, selamat maju jaya!

And to all SPM candidates, especially to my dearest little sister, NUR ADLINA DALILA, all the best in your SPM. 

Not to forget, to my other 2 sisters, ANGAH & AMIRAH, good luck in your exams. :) 

physiological antidote

Lets see..... one of the important items in toxicology to be memorized are the physiological antidotes. lets just dig into some of it and start memorizing them. tomorrow will be the poison center session with Dr Laila. need to be prepared in case she ask bout them.

::PHYSIOLOGICAL ANTIDOTES::
Atropine sulphate --> ChEII, Early digitalis
1.Cyanide antidote (amyl nitrite, sodium nitrite, sodium thiosulphate) --> Cyanide
2. Digibind/ Fab fragment --> Digitalis
3. Heavy metals
- BAL (british antilewsite) --> Arsenic, Mercury
- EDTA --> Lead
- Deferroxamine/ Dasferal --> Iron, Aluminium
4. Methylene blue --> Methemoglobinemia (aniline dye, dapson, nitrites)
5. Narcotic antagonist
- Naloxone/ Narcan (short acting) --> Acute opioids
- Nalmefene (long acting)  --> Acute opioids
- Naltrexone --> Opioid addicts
6. N-acetyl cysteine/ mucomyst --> Acetaminophen/ paracetamol
7. Oximes --> ChEII
8. Physostigmine salicylate/ antilirium --> Anti-cholinergic

Fuhhh that was long. okay,,, quite long i mean. huhu.

Last but not least, sharing an oldies song to enlighten you after a torture of long antidote list. huhu --> No Surprise :)

shame on you

Sayang, umur masih muda, masih bersekolah, tapi perangai.........

Dunia akhir zaman itu amat menakutkn. 

Hiburan melampau, perhubungan tanpa batasan, terlalu byk bergelumang dgn maksiat. bahan2 lucah senang sgt nk dpt membuatkn mereka terlupa hidup itu hiburan sementara. you get nothing pleasing your 'desire'.

Malu nk ckp, 'itu org Islam'. you don't even live like a muslim. 

Shame on you...

May Allah protect us always, amin.

new year room

Year 2011

just right there

Year 2012

Did a little make over to my room. but as usual, small changes only. hehe. if last year i'd put my bookshelf on the left side of the desk, this time i'm putting it to the right side. hehe. actually it's an unplanned changes. just that this year, i have a lamp hanging right above the spot where the bookshelf used to be. if you notice, there's a little bit of illumination on the top left of the second picture. that's where the light is present.

So there's the few new changes for this year. And since this is the final year (insyaAllah) so maybe the next year you will not see anymore of this views. (surely will miss this room, where i spent most of my time during my days in egypt) huhu. Till then, jya~

one new month

Alhamdulillah ~^_^~

final mission

Today is my last day in malaysia, and tonight i'll be boarding my flight at 8.30pm to egypt. hopefully this will be my last trip to the country as a student. ONE MORE YEAR to the finishing line, insyaAllah. can't wait to be back in malaysia next year. hehe. 

Pray that this journey will bring benefit and be filled with His Rahmah. :)

up till now

Subhanallah i never realized it had been more than a year since i made the promise to myself, him, his family and mine. thinking of that day, i just can't imagine how i was able to let myself say YES to his 'proposal'. still thinks it was like a dream. hehe. 

Alhamdulillah im still leading the same path with the same hope. the hope of having a blissful life dunya & akhirah with the one i chose. praying that this is the one i am destined to be with, send by Allah. i will keep on praying for the best, insyaAllah. :)

the music lover

"Berhibur tiada salahnya, kerna hiburan itu indah. hanya pabila salah memilihnya membuat kita jadi bersalah."

I'm a totally a music lover. i can't stand living without music. life seems too quiet. hehe. but as i grew up i come to realize that music plays a part in shaping me and music gives its credits on how i think. thus next time i'll be more careful in picking songs to love. lets have songs that are not just wonderful to the ears but to the souls too, insyaAllah.

::now we reached 300 posts:: :)

Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah, it has been 2 weeks since my e-day. it was like only yesterday im counting days to the day and today 2 weeks had past. how time flies..

And in just a couple of days im heading back to egypt to continue my studies. Alhamdulillah im now officially a final year medical student. and i only have less than a year to improve myself and gain as much knowledge as i can before considering myself a real doctor. hoho what a nightmare. chills coming each time i talk about being a doctor. hmmm scaryyy!! but my hope, i could end prettily what i've started 5 years ago. Ya Allah, help and guide me always. amin..

my cutey

It's been a while since i last updated this blog and it's all thanks to the young sweet cute little Darwisy who's giving me an extra part-time duty. manja bukan main. merajuk, melalak, meragam je awk darwisy. selamat comel kalau x dah lama auntie picit2 darwisy. hehe. luv you syg! *muah*

And now it has been more or less 2 months since the first time we met. and less than a week i will have to return to egypt n be apart from you. surely i'll miss you so much much much syg! at least one year more until we meet again :'(( don't forget me okayy syg. or else i'll cry! huuuu~~

The first time i hold darwisy bulat. hehe

The first time darwisy slept on my lap.

Darwisy at 6 1/2 months old.

Darwisy n papa at the great wall of china.

Very tough darwisy, he cud climb up to check point 3.

Darwisy ke papa yg tough? ngehee

Darwisy playing 'cak cekok' on the cashier's table.

The chubby darwisy.

Dr darswisy is in the house! ^^

Darwisy yg comot mkn pumpkin n carrot.

Sleeping darwisy.

Twin to Darwisy, Miss Darwisyah. hehe.

Darwisy with his new car, the civic.

Darwisy and domo-kun. sleep tight!

Kuasa bunga biru. haha =P

Darwisy in his 'car seat'.

Cute Darwisy went for shopping.

Eh what's with the mouth?? hehe.

My cute chubby nephew is almost 8 months old now.

Dear, take care n see you real sooonnn. dont forget MAMA DE keyh! ;)

LOVE YOU SAYANG~!

be soft to her

I don't understand why some guys they just can't speak nicely to their spouse. is it so hard for you to show affections? after all she's your other half not a kuli or a thing you can just hit on when you're stressed. she is the queen of your heart then treat her like one. don't blame her for things you couldn't do. it's not fair. you are not given a power to make you the king who can do anything he wish. you are given power to be a leader. scold when needed not blame.

Ya Allah, send me a man who treats not threats. who speaks softly but full of Your knowledge and reminder. who is gentle but firm in action. find me a man with a beautiful akhlak to be my companion for me to walk this journey of life together along the path of iman. 

2 weeks more

Subhanallah only 2 weeks left to the day i've been counting since last year. never imagine it would be this fast. it was like only yesterday the elders come to visit on 5th syawal last year and today im counting days to the e-day. hee. =D

Semoga dipermudah. aminn.....

My result for last semester, i thought it wud be released today but unfortunately im hearing nothing, not even a word about results. *frustrated* but still hoping it will turn out well. tiada dayaku tanpa pertolongan-Mu Ya Allah. bismillahitawakkal tu alallah..

last iftar in egypt

::8/8/12:: Last iftar with kak hani at pizza hut, green plaza after the final exam. it's our last day in egypt before flying back to malaysia the next day.

HAPPY IFTAR N HAPPY RAYA =)

p/s: don't forget puasa enam kwn2 ;)