Showing posts with label reflection. Show all posts
Showing posts with label reflection. Show all posts

Sunday, 8 May 2016

Suasana iman

Renungan di hari ibu. Utk peringatan kpd setiap mama papa, ummi abi, ibu ayah, mak abah, mummy daddy dan apa saja panggilan. Hidupkanlah suasana iman dlm rmh. Semoga Allah merahmati & memberkati keluarga kita..

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Soalan hot di inbox; "macam mana nak istiqamah buat ibadat dan jaga diri dr maksiat?"

Jaga "suasana" kita. *luang sedikit masa untuk baca bagi yang inginkan jawapan.

Dulu saya tak faham kenapa lah abah aku ni kumpulkan semua dan suruh dengar bacaan hadis dan Quran setiap hari dan dua kali. Lps subuh dan maghrib. Hari2 pula tu! Kau ngantuk ke penat ke asalkan kau ada kt situ. Istiqamah abah usahakan benda ni dgn sabar bertahun2 walaupun kami adik beradik mula2 tak paham. Ada yg main hp, tido, ketawa2, pikiran melayang dll . Hahaha! Bukan lama pun. Istiqamah dia suruh dgr dlm 10-15 min je. Masa saya belajar di MMU pun dia bagi sebuah , suruh istiqamah bace. Bace sorang2 pun takpe kalau kwn taknak dgr.

Lagi satu abah saya jenis belum masuk waktu solat dia dah bising2 kat adik2 lelaki suruh bersiap utk pergi ke surau. Bising bukan marah tapi mcm alarm clock. Dia akan cakap "ni lg 10 minit ni azan, dah boleh tutup TV dan masuk bilik air". Semua stress! Apahal blom masuk waktu dah kena masuk bilik air ni?! Semua dah mula tolak menolak taknak pergi. Hahaha

Rupa2nya dia buat itu semua utk bina suasana agama dalam rumah. Fikir risau agama dlm rumah. Baca hadis & quran lps subuh, sebagai ingatan sepanjang waktu siang. Baca lps maghrib, utk ingatan sepanjang waktu malam. Abah bising2 sblm azan tu supaya nak didik solat di awal waktu. Kena sedia sblm azan. Jadi kami yg perempuan2 ni dah terbiasa. Kdg2 azan baru saja 3 minit berlalu tp rasa mcm dah terlewat sangat dah.

Saya ingat lg abah cakap,kenapa buat ini semua sbb iman umat akhir zaman adalah iman suasana. Iman yg berubah2 & tidak tetap. Jika suasana nya baik, baik lah kita. Jika suasana buruk dan lalai, lalai lah kita .kalau kita tak usahakan diri utk baca Quran atau sekurangnya hadis mcm mana kita nak ada suasana agama dlm rumah?

Bangun subuh lewat. Pergi keja kalau tak mengumpat kita dgr org mengumpat. Masa lunch cerita dunia cerita pasal orang. Balik kerja buka tv, tgk rancangan hiburan. Ceria popstar, gempak superstar la, skrg ni dangdut star pulok. Sampai ke malam kita buka tv. Suami balik cerita dunia lagi. Cerita psl kerja, pasal jiran, pasal pelajaran anak tapi kita takda usahakan tanya pasal iman ahli keluarga kita. Cakap2 kita kt rumah pun takda pasal kebesaran Allah. Sudah 20 tahun berkeluarga pun kita tak ajar anak kita yg "Allah yang bagi makan". Jadi di bahagian mana yg kita usahakan utk bina suasana agama? Jawapannya "tiada". Solat kita pun paling lama 5 minit.

Saya cerita ni bukan nak kata keluarga saya dah hebat. Tapi itulah yg abah usahakan atas keluarga kami bertahun2. Kami masih lg bermujahadah utk istiqamah, setiap hari! Saya yg berada dlm suasana agama pun kdg2 terbabas dan lalai. Mcm mana dgn kwn2 saya yang lgsg tidak dedahkan dgn benda ini semua? Moga Allah pilih kwn2 dan keluarga kwn2 saya utk anda fikir risau agama.

-dipetik drp facebook status farihah zulkifle-
8.5.16 happymothersday

Saturday, 19 July 2014

Im lonely, feeling far n lost

Never have i dealt with anything more difficult than my own soul which sometime helps me and sometime opposes me - Imam AlGhazali

Ya muqollibalquluub, thabbith kullu bana ala diniq wa ala tho atik

oh Allah give me a strong heart. The heart that only belongs to You

Tuesday, 17 December 2013

crossing the arctic, in finding the Almighty

Amaze by the beauty of the creation. the wide field, the blue sky, the mountains, the wonderful colours of the green grass and the white snow. SUBHANALLAH! MASYAALLH! it's too beautiful. no word can describe how i feel the moment i watch this amazingly beautiful scenery shots.. Oh Allah, i feel so small, so tiny in front of You. definitely, You are THE ALMIGHTY.


Looking at the land so beautifully created, i can't imagine what Paradise may look like?
Paradise.. a place that no eye has ever see, a place that no heart has ever percieve. subhanallah~

Within it is a flowing spring
Within it are couches raised high
And cups put in place
And cushions lined up
And carpets spread around

Then do they not look at the camels, how they are created?
And at the sky, how it is raised?
And the mountains, how they are erected?
And at the earth, how it is spread out?

Al-Gasyiyah 88:12-20

Wednesday, 18 September 2013

sit back and reflect

Is he who is on a clear proof from his Lord, like those for whom their evil deeds that they do are beautified for them, while they follow their own lusts (evil desires)? [47:14]

And among them are some who listen to you (O Muhammad ) till, when they go out from you, they say to those who have received knowledge: "What has he said just now? Such are men whose hearts Allah has sealed, and they follow their lusts (evil desires). [47:16]

Surah Muhammad

Touched by the ayah. It feels as if Allah is giving me a warning, reminding me to keep in good deeds and distance myself from lusts. Oh Lord, how would i ever wanted to be far from You. You're my everything. send me your guidance day and night. 

May Allah protect all of us from evil and hell fire. 

Tuesday, 13 September 2011

the past mistake

When i look back after what had happened, i guess he's not at fault after all. myb this was all my fault. i admit myb we did share the same feelings, the same affections towards each other but unfortunately we didn't have the intimacy, the congruence, the understanding btwn one another. it's like i talked the cat's language, but you replied in dog's. we barely speak the same thoughts. you felt A while i felt B. you hoped for A while i hoped for B.

And the very lesson i learned today, the Venusians needed to learn how to receive while the Martians needed to learn how to give. And that we should stop blaming and starts supporting and forgiving.

Men are motivated and empowered when they feel needed 
while women are motivated and empowered when they feel cherished. 

It's because we didn't understand the opposite gender that we tend to misunderstand and misinterpret the other partner. so let us starts to open our hearts to receive the love from the ones we love.

Im sorry for blaming you all this while. i hope you'll forgive me for that. and im sorry that i left. didn't mean to hurt you that way. but we can't change what had happened. i just hope we both can move on with our lives and hope you'll find a better person that understands you better than i do.

Hoping also i can can start brand-new with the choice i've made. hoping that i will learn how to receive the love he's giving. learn how to motivate him by delivering him the message, "i needed you" =)


Ya Allah, help me to let go of the past and cherish the future. aminn