pervert.. serves you right

Those perverts who violated my dignity, i curse you everyday you'll be impotent your whole life. serves you right. i hate perverts and most of them are young teens. what a waste of human source.

Doa org teraniaya makbul tau. x takut ke buat jahat kat org? you'll be lucky if you happened to bump into those people with pure heart, they'll pray for your goodness. but unfortunately you bump into someone like me who happens to be cursing for you. not until you pledge on your knees asking for forgiveness will i forgive you. 

emo pulak memalam ni. #eh!

bury me deep

The first time you turn me down, it's because of another guy. i was upset by you for 2 reasons.
One, you choose to attend for the second appointment although you made an appointment with me first. and in my opinion the second was neither very important nor urgent. i'm not very sure about that, but i think i'm right based on observation.
Two, you choose the guy over me and i was peeved by your action. (bunyi cam jeles lak. eh! tolong sket. muntah darah skg) 

I choose to ignore and let go of that incidence. but when you did it the second time, and this time again still with no good reason, i'm becoming fed up. and when you add it with the pms thing, the anger becomes heightened.

Gosh, how i wished to let this go. dear heart, please forgive when your anger was at the utmost. and please, be calm and accepting.

Without communication there is no relationship. 

Without respect there is no love. 

Without trust there's no reason to continue.

P/s: I know that the quote had nothing to do with my anger, but still i insist to include it here. :P

ujian ketahanan pd tahap kesabaran

Hari ni klu ikutkn byk je bende yg berlaku yg mmg boleh menaikkn kemarahan, tp Alhamdulillah tenang pulak awk hari ni dealing with all the situations eh hanis adilah. haha. #Alhamdulillah. ketenangan itu dtgnye dari Allah. :)

Tak dpt bygkn klu masih dlm period PMS, kompem2 da meletup n bad mood spjg hari. huhu. mane tak nye... pegi kelas jumpe dgn mulut laser. tau la org ponteng kelas pagi, tp perlu ke nk ckp camtu? hendak seribu daya x nk seribu dalih. Sy ponteng sekali je dlm 11 minggu. amboih, belagak je bunyi. X kire lg yg awk dtg lmbt, escape round pg awl, ponteng lecture. kn byk tu. huhu.

Klu ikutkn hari ni mmg x nk pegi pon kelas pagi. sebab... x de sebab. hahaha. tp gagahkn diri jugak pergi walaupon dah lambat. kul 9.30 baru nk kejar tram. smpai2 stesen tram, tram pon jalan. terlepas la sudahhh. stgh jam berpanasan di bwh mentari terik musim panas baru la tram seterusnya smp. mmg x sempat la nk g kelas pagi kn. makanya truslah menuju ke library. benarlah kirenye ape org kata, niat itu penting. You wished not to attend morning class, and so that is what you got. Maka niatlah yg baik2 setiap hari. :)

Insiden lps balik kelas pulak, tunggu lame dah kat uma kwn sb blk awl hari ni, sekali kwn tu lak blk2 wat hal. klu ikutkn mmg geram pon tp bialah mereka dgn gaya mereka. malas nk rosakkn mood sendiri. ade la tu problem dorg. itu normal. anggap sahaja dorg tgh pms. awk yg da ok dr pms tu jgn nk emo2. be nice to everyone. kne belatih senyuuuuuum saat berduka, terluka, bermasalah, ape2 ajelah.

When you are angry, you forgive. inshaAllah ketenangan akn jadi milik awk :)

lack n lost

The clock is ticking, and i'm running out time and right now i don't know if i'm able to catch up. School is ending soon but i'm still lacking of knowledge. 

Today i got scolded by the doctor. It's painful. my heart ache. i feel like crying. i'm feeling down. useless. and that is when my heart start asking nonsense questions like why did i take medicine the first place. why am i so stupid. i'm tired. i'm sad. mum i need you...

Staying strong takes a lot of effort, and even the strongest breaks sometimes.

Dear heart, please be strong... 

respect

Source of the parody:: Forum suara mahasiswa

You ask for respect from others when even yourself do not respect them, then how do you expect people to respect you? Paku dulang paku serpih, mengata orang dia yang lebih.

How could you compare people by their educational background?? so arrogant of you. and ask people to respect you just because you are older than them. that is not how you teach manners to the young generations. through showing kindness and good attitude, simply you can educate them about manners. no need all those tellings. you speak too much, you make mistakes much more. say when it is necessary otherwise remain silence. Beware of words, they may harm you. terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata buruk padahnya.

One more thing, just because they are younger then you and less education background than you don't assume they are stupid and you are clever than them. give them chance to speak their mind and hear them out. maybe their opinions are far much better than yours.

So be nice to everyone. Small gestures can go a long way B-)

Seriously, im sick

Im not in the mood of talking about marriage right now. Haha. Boleh x. Pk pon malas da. Can you give me a break. I'll come back when im done with school.
But u cant and that is so making me miserable.
Im having a serious heart problem. Can anyone save me?

wish to post more and more

So many things to update in here but my time is very limited. what a heartache. this final semester, it's tough, tiring, rushing and too much to study. sorry bloggie if i'm kinda like abandoning you. trust me, to put an effort on you is my wish but my busy hectic life won't allow me. byaneyeou

Dont be a disobedient child

I know to some ppl they cannot accept when their parents dont gv permission to marry. But to me obeying ur parents are just as important as getting married soon (in the terms of avoiding zina n sins- these are the usual reasons for them) or maybe much more important than getting married quickly. Becareful, maybe Allah is testing you.
Just imagine, at the very last moment of you being under the responsibility of ur mum n dad, u ruin it instead of finishing it with clean records. How do you suppose Allah will bless ur marriage when you didnt even get the blessings from ur parents?
'Redha Allah, redha ibu bapa'
Jgn hnya kerana kita mahu penuhi cita2 cinta hati kita, kita melukakan hati org tua kita. Dont dont dont, never! Letakkan perkara yg hak pada tempatnya. Igtlah sblm kahwin, ketaatanmu kpd ibubapamu, lps kahwin nnt barulah taat pd suamimu. Jgn terbalik pulak. That's what ppl usually do =.="
May all our actions get the blessings of Allah. Take care of Allah, then Allah will take care the rest, inshaaAllah.

shame on you

Sayang, umur masih muda, masih bersekolah, tapi perangai.........

Dunia akhir zaman itu amat menakutkn. 

Hiburan melampau, perhubungan tanpa batasan, terlalu byk bergelumang dgn maksiat. bahan2 lucah senang sgt nk dpt membuatkn mereka terlupa hidup itu hiburan sementara. you get nothing pleasing your 'desire'.

Malu nk ckp, 'itu org Islam'. you don't even live like a muslim. 

Shame on you...

May Allah protect us always, amin.

be soft to her

I don't understand why some guys they just can't speak nicely to their spouse. is it so hard for you to show affections? after all she's your other half not a kuli or a thing you can just hit on when you're stressed. she is the queen of your heart then treat her like one. don't blame her for things you couldn't do. it's not fair. you are not given a power to make you the king who can do anything he wish. you are given power to be a leader. scold when needed not blame.

Ya Allah, send me a man who treats not threats. who speaks softly but full of Your knowledge and reminder. who is gentle but firm in action. find me a man with a beautiful akhlak to be my companion for me to walk this journey of life together along the path of iman. 

a revenge is not worth it

When people do bad to you, you just ignore them coz if you take revenge, you're just as bad as they are. or even worse, you bothered to care what they think about you. so let them be. let them live their lives as they wished, while you live yours without them to be bothered about. after all, your life is not just about them. so why bothered thinking of them when there's so much more important things you should take care of. so let them be and just let go. the thing you should do is taking care of what Allah thinks about you more than your heart desire, and that would be more than enough :)

the you i hate

The truth is i hate myself. Why can't i be more calm when it comes to bad situations?! is it bcoz im the one who cannot let go of something easily? n i will tend to get angry on small things for hours. i remembered what ustaz ahmad said, "org arab ni x sabar, xde iman, sbb tu Allah turunkan bala pd mereka. assobru minal iman" teresa sedih sgt bile igt kata2 tu. maknanye tahap imanku teramat-amat-amat rendah. Ya Allah jadikan aku yg berlapang dada n bersyukur.

 aku yg rapuh

wear your hijab no matter what!

I don't think Hijab is part of Being a good Muslim or not. Girl, I don't wear it either and you don't need to wear it for anyone! Be proud ! 

[anonymous]

To my surprise, i don't know why some people just think that wearing a hijab is something done just to please others. 'you don't need to wear it (hijab) for anyone' ??!! hello? are you stupid or what?! wearing hijab is not for pleasing others. it's to please your Master. people don't wear hijab coz some other people tells them to, but it is bcoz Allah told us to..

wahai nabi! katakanlah kpd isteri2mu, anak2 perempuanmu, dan isteri2 org mukmin, "hendaklah mereka menutup hijabnya keseluruh tubuh mereka". yg demikian itu agar mereka lebih mudah utk dikenali sehingga mereka tidak diganggu. dan Allah Maha Pengampun, Maha Penyayang. 

[33:59]

and don't go saying 'be proud' to those who does not wear them. afraid that you might just fell into being syirik. nauzubillahuminzalik..

and hijab is NOT for good women only. it's for the muslimah as a whole. if you are a muslim that means you witnessed Allah as your only Lord and Nabi Muhammad as His messenger. then why are you so stubborn to follow His rules?

only by saying 'be proud' and 'don't wear it for anyone' you are now being arrogant towards Allah. nauzubillah.. sesungguhnya pintu taubat itu terbuka luas. maka rebutlah peluang sebelum terlambat.

wallahu'alam

proud to be a muslim ^_^

the guilt inside me

i'm having this guilt inside me...
huh! felt guilty but still too stubborn to forgive. =.=

"....and when they are angry they forgive." [As-Syura::37]

antara ego dan iman..... timbanglah dgn baik

Hanis, sdgkn nabi ampunkn umat. sdgkn Allah ampunkn hamba2-Nya. siapalah kamu utk hidup bermegah di atas muka bumi Tuhan?

Wahai hati, berilah sedikit ruang utk aku memaafkn.

speak to improve oneself

i don't like people telling me what to do when at the same time they are doing just the same thing that they tell others not to do and give excuses for why they are doing it so that they won't look like the bad ones. for me, if you really speak to admonished then make sure that the first person who will get the message is yourself. if you speak only for the sake to improve others but not yourself, that's jealousy and envy.

smileee

Hating someone is like drinking the poison yourself and wanting someone else to die. Don't hate, don't frown. You never know who is falling in love with your smile :)

silence is a loudest cry

okay... this is true. tp apsal gambar latar die gambar laki ngeng? xseswai la weh. ok, ignore the background. focus ur eyes only on the wordss.. ngehee~

Dr husein, Dr husein...

31.10.11
student: Dr Husein, when will we present the assignment?
Dr Husein: you will present tomorrow because i will not be around on wednesday n thursday.
student: tomorrow??

**rushiing2, skipped class.. stayed up only for the assignment..........

1.11.11
student: Dr Shaimaa, is Dr Husein around? we suppose to present the assignment with him today.
Dr Shaimaa: He told me you didn't make any appointment with him today.
students: huh?! *puzzled*

oh! mesir tanah ternaik tekanan darahku.. sabo je la.

the story of us

I used to think one day we'd tell the story of us, How we met and the sparks flew instantly. People would say they're the lucky ones. I used to know my spot was next to you. Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat. Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on. Oh, a simple complication, Miscommunications lead to fallout. So many things that I wish you knew. So many walls up, I can't break through.


Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room. And we're not speaking. And I'm dying to know, is it killing you, Like it's killing me. I don't know what to say since a twist of fate. When it all broke down. And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.


Next chapter


How'd we end up this way? See me nervously pulling at my clothes and trying to look busy. And you're doing your best to avoid me. I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us. How I was losing my mind when I saw you here. But you held your pride like you should have held me. Oh I'm scared to see the ending. Why are we pretending this is nothing? I'd tell you I miss you, but I don't know how. I've never heard silence quite this loud.



Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room. And we're not speaking. And I'm dying to know, is it killing you, Like it's killing me. I don't know what to say since a twist of fate. When it all broke down. And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

This is looking like a contest Of who can act like they care less. But I liked it better when you were on my side. The battle's in your hands now. But I would lay my armor down If you'd say you'd rather love then fight. So many things that you wish I knew But the story of us might be ending soon.


Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room. And we're not speaking. And I'm dying to know, is it killing you, Like it's killing me. I don't know what to say since a twist of fate. When it all broke down. And the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now.

You see, this song did mean something to me. it's kinda reflecting the situation i was once in. how i hoped for things to get along well, but it seemed so hard for that. and i guess it really did end at last. from a love story to a tragedy. we lost it. myb it was because we were never meant to be together. and now, im waving the white flag. stepping out of it and trying to start a NEW LIFE.. ouh, i remember challenging myself on that.

And now i think i've made it through, although a part of me still remembers the past. it's okay, time heals. so dun give up.

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When i hear this song, it reminds me of someone. the one who introduce me to this song. tak jiwang konon. wekk. haha :P but it was bcoz of you, i becoming to like it. Thanks for sharing :)

i guess songs do play their roles in creating memories. so lets create beautiful memories out of songs ;)

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doing sins are like nothing

kejamnya manusia akhir zaman

berzina itu dosa.. membunuh itu dosa..
wahai manusia, tidakkah kamu takut akan kemurkaan dan siksa api neraka Allah??
apabila hidup tidak melandaskan syiar Islam, tidak mengharapan keredhaan dan keampunan Allah, maka manusia akan berjalan megah menyombong di muka bumi Allah. nauzubillahuminzalik.
Ya Allah peliharalah kami dari dosa dan siksa api neraka-Mu Ya Allah..