Ramadhan is coming

Wahai org-org yg beriman! jagalah dirimu (kerana) org yg sesat itu tidak akn membahayaknmu apabila kamu telah mendapat petunjuk. hanya kepada Allah kamu semua akan kembali, kemudian Dia akn menerangkan kepadamu apa yg telah kamu kerjakan. 
Al-Ma'idah [5;105]

Remember that one day we definitely will come back to Allah and all of our amalan will be told. if during our life time we do a lot of good deeds and we obey Allah insyaAllah to Jannah will we return, our home land, the Paradise :) but if during our whole life we were busy doing sins and we're too busy chasing the world alone and forgot that one day we will return to Allah then it will be such a waste living our life in the world coz maybe we will not be able to return to the paradise later. so let us always remind ourselves and the ones around us about our journey to the 'home land' and help each other along the way. so that one day we will meet each other again 'soon'. 

Since Ramadhan is coming, lets make it the best ramadhan and hopefully after ramadhan, we become a much better person than before. Rugilah sesiapa yg apabila ramadhan berlalu dia tidak mendapat apa2 kecuali lapar dan dahaga. selamat berpuasa semua. :)

And to my dear lordians, selamat berimtihan! may success be ours, insyaAllah. :)

rintihku kerana-Mu

Dah lama Allah tak kasi 'test' bile dpt satu terasa beratnya yg amat. don't get mad that Allah gave you the pain. you should feel blessed coz Allah still cares for you. you went too far so Allah pulled you back. say Thank you Allah, say Alhamdulillah You are still there to protect me from further sinning. 

Alhamdulillah when i started to look on the bright side i started to learn a valuable lesson that maybe no other will get the chance. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah. remember that what ever you do is for Allah. don't ever do anything against His will. you will get hurt. 

Ya Allah keep my faith in You. Don't let me go astray. i hate everything that makes me far from You. guide me, show me the way and save me from syaitan and myself.

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Ramadhan approaching.. niatkn agar ibadah kita pd bulan ramadhan tahun ini adalah lebih baik dari tahun sebelumnya dan semoga bertambah ketaqwaan kita kpd Allah pabila kita tinggalkn ramadhan nanti. Salam Ramadhan Kareem. selamat menjalani ibadah puasa :)

i still believe. keep the faith

I remember dreaming of telling my love story the way those 'i only love my partner after we're married' would do. those whom their love story starts after marriage. they don't even have any memories of loving their life time partner before their marriage. but i guess it would not be the case anymore.

It's tough when actually you really hoped for it but bcoz you couldn't make it short you have to go on with the flow and help convincing yourself alone that things is still the same as before when actually deep inside you know it's not. the feeling has changed. you know you care more than you used to. maybe you can control what's apparent from the outside but from the inside, your heart is still infected.

Ya Allah, hold my heart. make it full of You so that i wouldn't love anything more than You and i will love only the things that make You love me too.

I believe and i still believe that Allah has a bigger plan for me, a much better one ;) 

Provide me with faith...

Allah's talking to you, so listen

Look at the bright side of everything. you know you're wrong when you were touched by other's words or actions. don't let your ego blind you in stead take it with an open heart. know that Allah wants to tell you something so He send it through His 'messenger' to deliver His message and to reconnect you with Him. so don't ignore the message. take it, look through it and find your way to Him.

"percayalah janji Allah sentiasa benar"

Bersangka baiklah terhadap Allah dan sesama manusia, hatimu akn menjadi tenang. I apologize for my wrong thoughts and i forgave you. thank you miss messenger :) 

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM.YOU'RE THE BEST MOTHER I EVER HAD.I LOVE YOU AND I PRAY TO ALLAH TO LOVE YOU TOO.BIG HUG! =')

indirectly wounded

Never was my intention to tell the whole crowd but since someone has brought up the issue  i feel reluctant if i just keep silent, n so i tell. but i guess my pried intention was exactly what i was supposed to do but i took the risk and now i got myself wounded. i regret that last minute decision.

No wonder i was quite curious why nobody ask, how we met. coz this usually the first thing that would pop-up into mind when it comes to something like this. but i never thought people would go making their on assumptions and not wanting to ask me myself. im not an artist that if you ask me anything i would give you a typical answer, 'no comment'. then why don't you ask me? why must you ask someone else? she would never know me like i do. and actually i'm the type that doesn't simply share my life time stories to just anyone. so don't expect someone who is close to me to know everything about me, coz they don't.

I felt sorry to those i trust coz they had to be the victim of my crime, although im not sure what crime did i commit. but still, sorry my trustful friend/s. next time if anyone come to interrogate, just say to them, go ask her yourself, sure you'll get what you need. =)   

Okay, here it is... the answer is i don't get in touch with the person too much. and i am glad we are like what we are now coz if we do (in-touch so often) surely it would be such a boring and meaningless conversations. and in fact i barely know the person. sometimes when i ask something that im curious about him, he would just say, "you will know me". so i only know few about him, only the things he shares and the rest i will hv to learn and figure it out myself later. 

So next time, if you want the right answer then find it from the right person. =) 

p/s: i will never make the same mistake, sharing my secrets to 'strangers'.

why must i wait?

I frequently ask myself why did Allah let me find him a bit too early...? why not He save the good until 'the very right time' comes? but then i guess there must be, there should be, there is definitely hikmah behind every situations although sometimes it seems as if there's no good explanation for it.

Maybe He wants to teach me the meaning of sabr. or He wants me to be able to fight against my own lust and shameful desire, so that when it comes to a bigger hardships i can easily act upon and repel myself from getting involve into doing sins. and on top of all reasons, because i live to hv my iman tested.

Patutkah manusia menyangka bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan dengan hanya berkata: "Kami beriman", sedang mereka tidak diuji (dengan sesuatu cubaan)? 

[29:2]

So dear be strong although it's hard, but as long as you remember Allah and always be grateful with what Allah has given you InShaAllah you can make it through every hardships and be happy all time. keep the faith that everything will be fine as long as Allah is there holding you and leading you through the journey of life. =)    

nikah is a miracle

I find nikah a very strange thing yet it's miracle. just imagine, before nikah you are a total strangers but just after one lafaz suddenly you become even closer than siblings.
cth plg dekat ---> watch on youtube ::akad nikah haris & mahirah::
see what i mean? #Subhanallah. Allah knows best.

To my dear friends yg bakal menamatkan zaman bujang mereka, i wish you a very pleasant future ahead. may the 'masjid' u are about to build be the platform for you to achieve Allah's Jannah. 

Especially to my ex-classmate 5jujur kat semashur dulu, PUAN Mastura Johari best wishes for you on ur wedding day. may you be the best wife that even the most beautiful angels in heaven, sang bidadari syurga envy of you.

Congratulations SITI MASTURA JOHARI & KHAIRUL HISYAM HUSSEIN ^.~

distance isn't important, trust is

no matter what, keep pushing

It is okay, even if you are not as cleaver as the others but as long as you don't give up in learning, InShaaAllah there will be rewards and goodness for you. have strong faith in yourself and in Allah that you can and you will make it through the hardships and the unbearable stresses. don't give up! ;)

getting closer to reality

Pejam celik pejam celik daa tinggal beberapa hari je lg before final exam sem 10 a.k.a final exam for 5th year. mcm x sangka you are now not that very far from being a doctor. sounds scary isn't it. huhu. i don't really know whether im qualified to become one, im not sure myself. sometimes i feel very motivated to be a doctor so to be able to help those who are sick, but at other times i felt like im just useless. i can't even remember basic things in medicine so how am i going to help people? being a good doctor is not like selling medicine or products telling people how good is the medicine and let them live with the product but being a good doctor is when you can help your patients to be better in health or at least help them to have a better life in spite of their sufferings. and how are you suppose to make that happen when you don't even capable of looking and digging into your patient's problem??

Doctors are like investigators, who look for evidences to solve problems of their patients. diseases are like the criminals that hunts the patients and it's the duty of the doctors to search for the criminals and seize them away. thus, if doctors don't even know what to look for in the patient then how are they gonna catch the villain?

Ya Allah i pray to You to give me strength to walk this path i chose 5 years ago. the path that leads me to the person i am now and the path that will make me a 'man of hope' later.

"Ya Allah tiada perkara yg mudah melainkan apa yg Engkau jadikn mudah, Engkau berikn kuasa menukarkn perkara yg susah agar menjadi senang."

Ya Allah make me a man of knowledge~