Sekarang ni tiap2 hujung minggu mesti facebook akan penuh dgn gambar-gambar kahwin. "faham-faham je la awak tu dah tua bukan muda lagi. opkos awak da masuk ke alam baru yang dikenali sbg alam 'perkahwinan'. just try and bare with that. huhu. but just don't know why each and every time i see those pictures, somehow this 'phrase' will pop up into mind, "eee takutnya nk kawen" hahaha.. what the tuuut!
Well, i don't know about others yg da kawen n da nk kawen tu, myb they have these thoughts too, tp bile express kat the whole world, they will say their happy feelings over the worries. who knows. tp memandangkan this side of the world, (i mean this blog, the little world of mine) belongs to me, i'm expressing my worries here lah. hehe. but just don't get me wrong, i mesti la ade perasaan hepi nk kawen tu,bekobar2 kot walaupon persiapan satu pon x selesai lagi. hahaha bajet byk masa sgt la tuh. (let me finish my studies first, then i'll put my full effort into this wedding preparation. wat bende under stress tu kan 'best'. hahah. org lain yg tolong risaukan utk awk, awk rilek je. kelam kabut kangggg. ops, mintak2 tak!) but somehow i just like to express it in a different way. haha. tett!! maybe because i NEVER actually let anyone 'in' (into my heart), i'm kinda person who don't fully open to people, the type that easily feels insecure and overprotected. afraid of getting hurt (myb?). so when marriage means sharing your whole life (after this) with a total stranger that is kind of scares me. what if i cannot do so? letting him in fully?
---eh tetibe teringat video yg pernah post baru2 ni psl, 'it's not about the nail'. i think i'm just being like her (the woman in the video) right now. haha. perempuan-perempuan, memanglah suke risau bende pelik-pelik. =.=" eh ape ni jumping2 tulis belog. haha. itu flights of ideas. kuang-kuang-kuang. oke, full stop!!
Anyhow, inshaAllah, Allah will guide my way. HE will help me to open up to my husband later. as long as you do things in Allah's way, His help is with you. don't worry no more okay miss hanis. kui3.
Well, i don't know about others yg da kawen n da nk kawen tu, myb they have these thoughts too, tp bile express kat the whole world, they will say their happy feelings over the worries. who knows. tp memandangkan this side of the world, (i mean this blog, the little world of mine) belongs to me, i'm expressing my worries here lah. hehe. but just don't get me wrong, i mesti la ade perasaan hepi nk kawen tu,
---eh tetibe teringat video yg pernah post baru2 ni psl, 'it's not about the nail'. i think i'm just being like her (the woman in the video) right now. haha. perempuan-perempuan, memanglah suke risau bende pelik-pelik. =.=" eh ape ni jumping2 tulis belog. haha. itu flights of ideas. kuang-kuang-kuang. oke, full stop!!
Anyhow, inshaAllah, Allah will guide my way. HE will help me to open up to my husband later. as long as you do things in Allah's way, His help is with you. don't worry no more okay miss hanis. kui3.
Love your husband because of Allah, and may we stay together till jannah. :')
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Countdown: 3 days to Ramadhan.
I wonder how Ramadhan this year will be. apa-apa pon tetap berharap i can make this ramadhan better than last year. rindu nk solat tarawih kat gamek ibrahim lg. hopefully i can get this for my last ramadhan in egypt. sayunya bile memikirkan x lama lagi nk tinggal di mesir. lebih sayu dan pilu bile mesir yg kucintai, kampung halaman keduaku bergolak seperti ini. Ya Allah peliharalah bumi ini dan rahmatilah ia.
Allah will never go back on His promises. keep on praying for egypt..
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