the past mistake

When i look back after what had happened, i guess he's not at fault after all. myb this was all my fault. i admit myb we did share the same feelings, the same affections towards each other but unfortunately we didn't have the intimacy, the congruence, the understanding btwn one another. it's like i talked the cat's language, but you replied in dog's. we barely speak the same thoughts. you felt A while i felt B. you hoped for A while i hoped for B.

And the very lesson i learned today, the Venusians needed to learn how to receive while the Martians needed to learn how to give. And that we should stop blaming and starts supporting and forgiving.

Men are motivated and empowered when they feel needed 

while women are motivated and empowered when they feel cherished. 

It's because we didn't understand the opposite gender that we tend to misunderstand and misinterpret the other partner. so let us starts to open our hearts to receive the love from the ones we love.

Im sorry for blaming you all this while. i hope you'll forgive me for that. and im sorry that i left. didn't mean to hurt you that way. but we can't change what had happened. i just hope we both can move on with our lives and hope you'll find a better person that understands you better than i do.

Hoping also i can can start brand-new with the choice i've made. hoping that i will learn how to receive the love he's giving. learn how to motivate him by delivering him the message, "i needed you" =)

Ya Allah, help me to let go of the past and cherish the future. aminn

sweet damon

comelnye damon. haha

my life and decisions

What's the key to success? Two words: good decisions. 
What's the key to good decisions? One word: experience. 
How do i get experience? Two words: bad decisions. 

The choice i've made, i hope it's the best. although sometimes it feels like unbelievable, but i believe in myself and i believe in Allah. i trust Him to give me the best in life and i will accept my destiny as it is.

Don't afraid to make a decision and be responsible for the decision you've made.

Sometimes we just can't make everyone happy. and we just cannot think that everyone will feel the same way as we do. as long as you believe what you're doing is right, than just go for it. ignore what others have to say about you. you are not them, and they are not you. sometimes people like to blame others for what they cannot do or get. but they forgot to look at themselves and ask themselves, "what have i done that makes this happen?"

Accept the things you cannot change, change the things you cannot accept. 
i hope that we can all teach ourselves to be a believer who can accept the facts in life.

kami syg suami dan ayah kami

‎"Aku terima nikahnya dgn si dia binti si ayah dia dengan mas kahwinnya RM..”

Bunyi macam senang? ini erti sebenarnya :

“Aku tanggung dosa-dosa si dia dari ibu bapanya, apa saja dosa yang dia buat, dari mendedah aurat hingga ke tinggalnya solat, aku tanggung dan bukan lagi ibu bapanya tanggung, dan aku tanggung semua dosa bakal anak-anak aku. Kalau gagal, maka aku fasik, dayus & aku rela masuk neraka dan malaikat Zabaniyah melibas aku hingga pecah badan aku”

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"Selangkah anak perempuan keluar dari rumah tanpa menutup aurat, maka selangkah juga ayahnya itu hampir ke Neraka. Selangkah seorang isteri keluar rumah tanpa menutup aurat, maka selangkah juga suaminya itu hampir ke Neraka.”

Apa makna sebenar cinta, kasih sayang pd ayah & suami sedangkan kita punca mereka terjerumus ke dalam neraka. Sanggupkah kita biarkan ayah yg banyak berkorban membesarkan kita juga suami yg kita kahwini ke NERAKA hanya kerana menanggung dosa2 kita?


Renung2kanlah.. and let us become a better daughter, a better wife and a better muslimah, insyaAllah :)

second step

Today, to me it was not like any usual annual raya celebration. this time this year, it was a bit different. i never thought it will be this fast. but on top of all, i thanked Allah for what He gave me. for the ease He provide me with. from the very beginning up till now, i always and never will stop praying to Allah.. "Ya Allah, if in Your knowledge that this matter that i am working on is the best for me in my religion, my livelihood, and for my life in the Hereafter, then make it easy for me. And if in Your knowledge that this matter is not good for me in my religion, my livelihood and my life in the Hereafter, then keep it away from me and take me away from it and choose what is good for me wherever it is and please me with it."

Alhamdulillah up till now, the matter went on smoothly, even i cannot imagine that i am now holding a big responsibility, holding someone's trust.. Ya Allah if this really meant for me, make it easy for me always. And guide me always in Your way. the only thing that im hoping for is Your redhaaa... Allah's redha is the only thing im searching for..

September 3rd 2011, 5 Syawal