Feeling Meh

Hai bloggie, my sweet potato. How have you been? I’ve been feeling meh 🫤 for I don’t know what and why. It’s just that since my husband start working at his new job place i.e being away to the office again, we’ve not been as what we used to be. Maybe because both of us were tired by the end of the day that we hardly speak nor spend some quality time together. All that we know is to find each other mistakes and play the blaming game over and over again up to the point that I’m getting sick of it. I just want this nonsense to stop but this vicious cycle had rooted too deep that I don’t know how to find the way back ☹️ Oh Allah, help please. Give me Your mercy and guidance..

COVID-19 in 2021

It has been more than a year since the COVID-19 pandemic hits the world. And up till this day we still haven’t seen the light at the end of the tunnel. With the new delta variant spreading faster and more aggressive than the previous strain, it looks like this pandemic is not even close to ending soon. 

Baby boy pretty please!

This feeling that I’m having right now had hit me ever since I had learned that I’m pregnant again. That is ‘please this baby be a BOY!’ 😆 I used to have the same feeling when I was pregnant with my first child and it happened again this time. I know I couldn’t change fate but I know I could always have hopes and dreams right? Huhu. I will continue to make prayers as long as I could. But please know that no matter whatever Allah bestow on me, I will always be grateful coz might be that the thing you wanted isn’t the best for you, for Allah knows best. He’s the Almighty, the most knowing for we know not. 

For now, I will keep on praying and hopefully my prayers will be heard. Amiiiiinnnnnnnn 😊

2021 baby

Oh my blog! Hello 2021!

I’m currently in my 2nd trimester of my 3rd child. I’m not sure if I’m ready to be called the mother of three. Hee~ Well to be honest, since I dunno when I had put in mind that I only want 2 children although both of my children are girls. Maybe because I’m already comfortable with having 2 big kids and won’t want to repeat the sleepless nights when having a baby. Haha! What a dream 🤪 But I’m still grateful for what Allah has sent me with this time. I hope it’s a boy. Please, pleaseee. 😜 

Well actually I just want to put on a review on my current pregnancy. During my first trimester I had a very bad morning sickness I never had before with my other two previous pregnancies. It was so bad that I’d hope that this all would stop and go away. Imagine spending almost 2 months or so lying in bed everyday, every hour having dizziness that won’t go away no matter what you do 😔 Not to mention nauseating all the time and vomiting at least 3 times a day everyday for 2 months 🤢🤮 No matter what you eat, you’ll definitely end up throwing. And the worst had yet to come. I remember I sometimes vomit up to 6-7 times per week that my body felt so weak I couldn’t do anything and I felt so useless and emotionally drained 😢 I lost 4kgs during that time. I even had an iv drip during my 11th week of pregnancy. But I’m lucky it all started to become better as I entered my 2nd trimester 🤗 Oh not to forget, I also had an episode of hematemesis in my 13th week of pregnancy in the middle of the night. Luckily I only had it once. Couldn’t imagine if anything worse had happened. It turned out to be because of mallory weiss tear in my esophagus and nothing more serious than that, Alhamdulillah. Now that I’m all better, I craved for foods so much and I’m gaining my lost weight rapidly. Huhuhu. Need to be careful with that. I won’t want to end up being obese and unhealthy during this pregnancy. Heee~ 

Not to mention, the weirdest thing ever happened to me with this pregnancy is that i had a very sensitive smelling sense which I hadn’t experienced before with my other two pregnancies. It’s like my senses were being heightened and suddenly I had gained a new ability like what superheroes and vampire movies would always portray them to be. Haha. So funny as it may seems but can you imagine me being in a tight situation, juggling between showing affection and coping with this undesirable newly gained capability? Hahaha. I was unable to withstand my own kids n husband up to the point that even their ordinary body smell were a troublesome for me. 😅 I will oftentimes nauseated and vomited because of this! That was how bad my morning sickness was with this one 😂 Luckily it all starts to fade away as i hit my second phase of the pregnancy 😊 Couldn’t imagine having to cope with this nasty morning sickness for the rest of the pregnancy 😆

Till then, adios~! Hope to see you soon little one. And please be nice to mommy ya. Haha 😘

Lockdown 2020

I've been meaning to update this blog but have always turning it down just as soon as i said to myslef i would. Haha. What a dilemma! Just like when wives have dilemma about if their husbands being loyal to them or not, especially in long distance relationship situation. Hahaha. Can you even imagine what that would feel like? Heh..

Hmm, since it's the lockdown a.k.a the PKP season (perintah kawalan pergerakan) a.k.a restriction movement order, we the Malaysian as a whole happens to be stuck in our homes unable to go anywhere be it in the country or to the overseas.

To make things worse for me, I'm stuck with my two daughters unable to travel back to Japan as the PKP started on 18th March and our flight that was supposed to be on 29th March was cancelled due to the current Covid-19 situation.

And that leave us thousands of miles apart from their father a.k.a my sweethusband who happens to be in Japan right now. And it has been more or less 2 months since then.

And I'm starting to miss my husband so much and at the same time my mind starting to play dirty tricks on me trying hard to make me think of ugly things that could happen in a long distance relationship, especially when my husband seems to be enjoying himself alone there without me or the kids around. 🙄 I really hope him being temporarily 'single' won't make him act as if he is still single and available ya. I think I should warn him before bad things might really happen. Hahaha. 😂 Whateverr 🙄🙄

But deep down, I know the only one that can hold ones heart is our Creator, The Al-Mighty and the best weapon a muslim can have is the power of du'a. Hence, I'll never stop making prayers to Him to ease our heart and rest assured that He will protect me, him, us, our marriage from distructions and nasty outsiders.

So dear mind, please quit playing games with me, coz I'm trying really hard right now to block all your negative thoughts that's been bothering me these past few days. I really àppreciate if you can do that favour for me.

Well then, adios!

Just another random rants of mine~