happy vs sad

u always like to make surprises don't u...
make unpredictable moves... changes in character.. one second u r ok, the nex minute u r not..

few minutes ago i discovered something.. sumtin gud? sumtin bad? i dunno..
rite now i dunno if im feeling happy or sad.. but i guess it's both..

happy coz even u seems like avoiding me but actually u care.. tQ *smiling*
sad coz i dunno y u r easily hurt n upset.. sumtime it makes me think wut did i do wrong..? why u suddenly mad at me..? are u angry or u juz ok..? am i making ur life harder..? n wut am i apologizing for this time again..? *all puzzled up*

but how sad, all my questions end up with no answers.. i'm left burdened by them..
dats wut hurts me the most..

i miss the time when we will only share happy moments together.. laughing at each other's joke.. killing time together doing only fun.. giving comfort, faith, hope, strength..

but lately, we barely speak..

miss the happy times... mis the u~