Read someone wrote on her status, to be beautiful no need to think hard, enough with having smile on the face, easy going with people, and knows how to control emotions.
Then i though, i seldom smile to people, not easily mix with people especially with the one i don't know and obviously a hot-tempered girl. And i assumed that one of the reason why i can't easily smile, easily mix and easily control my anger is because i don't really care what other people think about me. Do i look good or pretty or beautiful in front of them or not i simply don't care. what i only care was myself. self-centered =.=" Coz to me being pretty was just nothing. More like giving an extra reason to be the target of irresponsible guys to flirt, and i obviously hate that.
But i guess it is not just the case after all. Wanting to be pretty has a bigger meaning. I must say, it may just be one of the way how i can overcome my temper (which is one of the hardest thing to do, tried many times but still fails to fully control my anger and i hate myself for that). And that is to have the desire to be pretty. haha sounds funny but i guess the need to look pretty in front of others is a must to all women, and for me my reason will be because i want to fight against my biggest weakness and that is my anger. Habluminallah habluminannas.
Ya Allah, ease my way...
Then i though, i seldom smile to people, not easily mix with people especially with the one i don't know and obviously a hot-tempered girl. And i assumed that one of the reason why i can't easily smile, easily mix and easily control my anger is because i don't really care what other people think about me. Do i look good or pretty or beautiful in front of them or not i simply don't care. what i only care was myself. self-centered =.=" Coz to me being pretty was just nothing. More like giving an extra reason to be the target of irresponsible guys to flirt, and i obviously hate that.
But i guess it is not just the case after all. Wanting to be pretty has a bigger meaning. I must say, it may just be one of the way how i can overcome my temper (which is one of the hardest thing to do, tried many times but still fails to fully control my anger and i hate myself for that). And that is to have the desire to be pretty. haha sounds funny but i guess the need to look pretty in front of others is a must to all women, and for me my reason will be because i want to fight against my biggest weakness and that is my anger. Habluminallah habluminannas.
Ya Allah, ease my way...
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