Lockdown 2020

I've been meaning to update this blog but have always turning it down just as soon as i said to myslef i would. Haha. What a dilemma! Just like when wives have dilemma about if their husbands being loyal to them or not, especially in long distance relationship situation. Hahaha. Can you even imagine what that would feel like? Heh..

Hmm, since it's the lockdown a.k.a the PKP season (perintah kawalan pergerakan) a.k.a restriction movement order, we the Malaysian as a whole happens to be stuck in our homes unable to go anywhere be it in the country or to the overseas.

To make things worse for me, I'm stuck with my two daughters unable to travel back to Japan as the PKP started on 18th March and our flight that was supposed to be on 29th March was cancelled due to the current Covid-19 situation.

And that leave us thousands of miles apart from their father a.k.a my sweethusband who happens to be in Japan right now. And it has been more or less 2 months since then.

And I'm starting to miss my husband so much and at the same time my mind starting to play dirty tricks on me trying hard to make me think of ugly things that could happen in a long distance relationship, especially when my husband seems to be enjoying himself alone there without me or the kids around. 🙄 I really hope him being temporarily 'single' won't make him act as if he is still single and available ya. I think I should warn him before bad things might really happen. Hahaha. 😂 Whateverr 🙄🙄

But deep down, I know the only one that can hold ones heart is our Creator, The Al-Mighty and the best weapon a muslim can have is the power of du'a. Hence, I'll never stop making prayers to Him to ease our heart and rest assured that He will protect me, him, us, our marriage from distructions and nasty outsiders.

So dear mind, please quit playing games with me, coz I'm trying really hard right now to block all your negative thoughts that's been bothering me these past few days. I really àppreciate if you can do that favour for me.

Well then, adios!

Just another random rants of mine~

Mega

I meant to buy the regular / small size cup but got myself this mega size iced cafe latte

May my insanity, euphoric-nity, and hand trembility won't effects me throughout the day -_-

Song mood: happier -ed sheeran

We're not broken, just bend

A hug and an appreciation. Is it too much to ask?

Tau nak cantik je, tak fikir keselamatan LANGSUNG. isn't it a bit too harsh. Don't you think so?

Don't worry, i'll heal myself. Nothing matters

Song Mood: Just give me a reason - Pink, Nate Ruess

Frust di Hachiojiminamino

Keciwa sket hari ni. Mmg x dpt nk lindung kekecewaan ni. Maybe sebab kita expect too much kot sbb tu kecewa dia laen machiam sket. Huhuhu. 

Kenapa kecewa? Mungkin sbb rasa mcm x berbaloi. Ialah kan, perjalanan ke sana tu jauh makan byk masa, alah2 duduk sana x sampai sejam dah ajak bayar. Kalau dah bayar maksudnya dah habis shopping la kan? Walhal kita x puas lagi roaming dalam tu. Huhu. So rasa masih x puas nak bershopping and buang masa kat perjalanan je. Sebab tu kot rasa tak berbaloi dan kecewa. Hmmm..

Ok now i dah home sick. Nak balik!! Huwaaa~

Stages in our marriage

Our first year, everything seems perfect. I called it the honeymoon year. Disagreement happens but will always choose to lose to the other as long as it makes you happy.

Our second to third year, we're getting to know each other more but will choose to see the flaws rather than goodness. Trying hard to change you to be more like me. And will get disappointments and resentments all the time. What we did were just trying to blame each other for things we couldn't change. Less trust, but more egos and self center.

Our fourth to fifth year, we know that everybody has flaws and we choose to aknowleged them instead of trying to fix. We try to cope with each other, talk better and disagree less. We start seeing good in each other too rather than finding impurities in our relationship.

In marriage, it is not always as beautiful as it seems. We have our odds but we choose to respect each other. Find goodness in every act of kindness. Let down our ego and try to understand each other better. Always support and help each other. Never leave and keep holding on to one another. That's what makes us stronger. It's being TOGETHER. And that TOGETHER won't happen over the night. So keep trusting US to walk this life journey together till Jannah, inshaAllah 😊

Five years in counting and to many more years together...

I love you forever, My Love ❤